On thoughts of having another baby..

Getting pregnant again?

Yes, I have thought of it a lot of times. But after three miscarriages, I think the chance of a safe delivery is very slim for me. I don’t want to dwell on the details, it only makes me sad. However my ob-gyn has suggested that if we really want to try and have another baby, we need to have a work-up –both of us.

Yet, we still have not done so… why? Mostly because it entails a lot of expense without a guarantee, and we both have agreed that it’s God’s will besides we have two beautiful children already.

But yes, that thought is still at the back of my mind.

That every time I see a baby, I want to cuddle them and imagine the child to be my own. That every time I see a pregnant woman, I remember how it used to feel carrying a baby in your womb, being careful about what you eat and reminding yourself to take those prenatal vitamins even though you can’t seem to swallow them. Pregnancy was never easy for me but the thought of having your newborn baby afterwards is enough to erase all those pains away.

If and when, I’ll be able to conceive again… God only knows. Another bundle of joy in the house is a welcome idea.

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